Children's Book Giveaway

The Mommy Files is giving away three copies of The Elephant Story by Harriet Blackford and Manja Stojic. Go and enter!

Virtual Baby Shower for BaBy Wade- You're Invited

Wade was born early so Click the button and come join in the fun. Many giveaways and who doesn't love a giveaway?

Praise the Lord

I never have actually written or been a witness to the Lord. I mean, I pray to God and we go to church, but I keep it to myself. I don't speak about the Lord, but I do want to let others know how the Lord continued to reach out to me even when I continued to turn away from Him and I continued to do wrong.

When I left my family to come to NY, I got involved with the wrong people. Life in Manhattan involved parties several nights a week. I smoked and inhaled so many drugs. There's so much money and access to drugs was as easy as access to soda or candy. After partying a few months, my body was feeling different. I told myself that I had to stop or at least calm down a bit, but I didn't because my addiction to the high was getting stronger.

One night after partying, I took a cab back to the apartment I shared with two friends. I could hardly see and by the time I got inside, I was puking my brains out. I went into the bathroom and I fell. My head hit the tub and as I continued to fall, I said Lord save me. I don't know if the words came out or if I said them on the inside. The following day I woke up in the hospital with wires hooked up around me. The doctor came and spoke to me about my drug use. I was embarrassed and humiliated. He said the word "drug addict." I didn't hear anything after that word. All I could think is How did I become a drug addict? A DRUG ADDICT.....the words echoed through the room...and through my soul. How could this have happened? How could I let it happen?

After he left the room, again I whispered to God, please save me. I knew I didn't want to be a drug addict, but I also knew the lure of the drugs and my addiction was getting stronger. Later that day, I was released and the first thing I did was quit my job. I couldn't be around those people and I felt that God was leading me away from them. I took several temp jobs and then finally found a permanent position at a new company. I wasn't around the drugs and although I craved them, I continued to pray to God to save me. My family was in Virginia and I had lost contact with them most of that year. I didn't go home for Christmas because I was ashamed of who I became. No one deserved to be related to a drug addict. I didn't want them to see me in the current state.

About four months later, I stepped into St. Patrick's in NYC on May 16, 2004 because I felt God was calling me there. While I sat in the church, I felt God's presence and I knew the drug addiction was over. I am grateful to God for continuing to pursue me while I pursued poison and evil. It's May 16th - Praise God! I try to spend the day in prayer hoping that God will save another drug addict whose just on the verge as I was.

Shi Shu Blanket Giveaway

Piece of Me ~ Making my American Dream Blog has an incredible giveaway right now. The giveaway is for this gorgeous to die for Shi Shu blanket. I love that the blanket is made of natural fibers, is breatheable and is antibacterial. I love the beautiful colors of the blanket as well. So head over to Piece of Me's blog and see her cute daughter, Princess P and the Shi Shu blanket. Then enter the giveaway and if you win, please send it to me because we're best friends, okay?

Giveaway ends May 19th.

Win a Rocky Mountain Cloth Diaper!

Mama Notes is giving away a Rocky Mountain Diaper!

I've heard of Rocky Mountain Cloth Diapers, but I haven't tried them yet. I want to! I've seen the adjustable leg, but I wasn't sure if I was able to adjust it well and if it really held. Go enter.

Great Friday!

It was wonderful to have my husband back yesterday! When Jon got home, I couldn't stop kissing him. I never told him how lonely he was because right now only he is working and I am so greatful that he wants me to stay home with out son. We put the baby to bed and had time alone.

I'm glad the weekend is here and we can spend time together. I have to go to the mall and get some summer clothes for all of us this weekend.

Invited a Neighbor to Go Walking & Over for Coffee

Yesterday, I read about Amanda from Proud Mommy of Four who attends storytime with her children and then has lunch with friends and their children weekly. Something clicked in me that I need to get out and do some things with other Moms.

We moved to Brooklyn from Manhattan and things are a lot slower paced here. I stopped working and I don't get to interact with my old friends from work. I don't know my neighbors and most don't seem like they want to know me. Isn't that terrible? I mean, I say hello and they sort of nod, but that's it.

So I like to exercise everyday and powerwalk with the baby in the stroller. Today, I invited another Mom who lives two blocks down the block. I noticed her with her stroller and just asked her if she was heading down to the shore. She nearly jumped at me and was like "let's go." Her name is Mona and she has a 9 month old daughter. She's a year younger and also a Manhattan transplant. Mona told me that she sees me everyday and meant to say hello, but that I passed her too fast. Anyway, she said that she would love to go a few times a mornings a week. After our walk, I invited her and her cute baby upstairs. It was nice to sit and have coffee.

Not feeling so lonely today! :) And I won a Planet Wise wetbag from Proud Mommy of Four blog.....so it was a great day.

Lonely Days

My husband will be back on Thursday, but man have these days been so hard on me. Physically, I'm fine, but emotionally I feel lonely and alone. I'm a Mom and I didn't think I would feel this way anymore.

My family lives in Virginia and I really missed them after seeing them on Skype on Sunday. Everyone was having such a good time and although it was fun to skype, it left me feeling very empty and alone......Alone is the keyword here.

I've been thinking about going back to work. Jon wants me to stay home, but I miss my old life this week.

Wanna Win a Hot Thermometer?

The Exergen TemporalScanner is an infrared thermometer and will read your child's temperature in two seconds! If you want to win it like I do, head over to The Mommy Files.

Lonely on Mother's Day

My hubby is away on a business trip and it was my first Mother's Day. I know he had to go on the trip, but part of me is resentful because I wanted him to be here.

It's hard staying with the baby all day and then not having John here to talk with and hold me at night.

So Happy First Mother's Day to me. I'm so pathetic tonight. Ugh.